March 2020! Just three months into the year and somehow we wish we could start it all over! We pray for much better times ahead!
I’ve got a big surprise! As I mentioned, this will be the final online part of Perspectives.
I’m happy to announce that Perspectives is getting published into a book in a few months! I’m grateful for all the support and the love and the feedback (also for all the threats and the 2am discussions – I really love you guys!) Let’s anticipate the book! Let’s share Perspectives with the world!
Aaand If you’re a little late to the party, or a little behind, you can find the other parts right here:
Sometimes, God’s answers are a firmly shut door.
The funeral was very solemn. He was a well-known, well-loved man.
There was none of the usual celebrations that people were used to at funerals or wakes. The atmosphere was grave… literally.
Sarah was inconsolable. It was as if she’d finally realised what could have been.
She’d played so many scenes in her head countless times! Like that time when he took her on a boat cruise because she was stressed. She kinda gave him hell, but she had a good time! Then there was that time, when she was pregnant, he’d rub her feet every evening before she went to bed, because he knew it felt good and she liked it. There was no way she was going to land a man like him again. Especially with her attitude, and she knew it.
His little girls were in cute black dresses. The oldest had been very quiet. She could somehow tell what had happened, and she knew that this was tragic. The youngest was in wondrous oblivion, running between different family and church members. She was a happy soul, much like her father had been a few years ago.
Nadia wasn’t at the funeral. Sarah knew because she looked out for her.
God, Bruma was a good man, I’m so sorry!
As the senior pastor preached, Sarah thought back to that letter she had written to him before he died. Was she to blame?
“So many times we question God. Why do good people die? Why does such a great man of God have to die so soon?”
“What becomes of his family? Did God not think about that before taking him away?”
I didn’t love him as much as I should, but God, Bruma deserved a good end to life!
“There’s never an appropriate answer to these things. One day in Heaven, there are so many questions God will answer for us. Sometimes we say this person or that person deserved a happy ending. Brothers and Sisters, Pastor Bruma’s good ending is in the bosom of the Lord! This world of rot isn’t where our happy ending is. This world of disease and death, stress and fear… This world isn’t great!”
It was a good thing that Bruma’s brothers were not stressful people. The extended family had started some drama, but it was to be expected. They knew Bruma had some wealth, and they knew there was no way they could have it all. Sarah wasn’t going to let them.
She thought about Nadia. Where was she? Why didn’t she show up? It was pretty obvious she was in love with Bruma, and Sarah couldn’t shake the feeling that maybe they did have a thing before he died.
It didn’t matter now. He was gone. She had disappeared too.
Sarah was jostled out of her sleep by Nadia opening the door. The door had this squeaky sound it made.
It had been 4 weeks. Maybe this dream was the indicator.
The doctors had discussed it with her so often. His brothers had visited, and had also been talked to. Initially it was a very vehement “No”.
With time, it was looking as if there was little that could be done anymore.
He was taken of the vent a week ago, and he was somehow breathing spontaneously. He didn’t have the abnormal heart rhythms anymore. But he was still not conscious.
Bruma was gone. Sarah sighed.
It was time to pull the plugs.
Your letter was quite interesting to read.
I think about you too. More than I’ve thought about any man before in my adult life. And trust me, there have been an insane number of men who have assumed I should think of them.
Unfortunately, I wish the letter was enough to let me let down my guard and run back into your arms… I do miss you, but I don’t know if this is it.
Regarding your wife/ex-wife/soon-to-be-ex-wife… I’m sorry about your loss. But hey, don’t you think it’s so unfair of you to decide to hold her back because you’re not ready to move on?
It’s interesting how some men will always try to find a way to control women. I’m glad I ‘brought you to your senses’ and glad that you’re finally signing your papers and getting your divorce. Good on you!
Unfortunately this makes me wonder what lengths you’d go to, to keep me from doing something if it didn’t agree with you.
You take me back to my twenties, when I still had butterflies in my tummy for a man, when I lived and dreamed that fairy tale life. It’s a beautiful thing. It feels good to know that my ‘heart of stone’ can actually fall in love again. And I’m grateful to you for showing me this!
But apart from the fact that I barely know you, I’m gradually getting the feeling that you don’t take it too well when things don’t go your way. Things will not always go your way Adeola, and that’s not always a bad thing. You move on, and you make it work.
I wish this was the reply you anticipated. I wish I could say that knowing the full story makes it easier for me to run back to you. I’ve come to care a lot about you, and this isn’t an easy decision.
I’m happy to remain friends with you, to figure out if ever I can stop being sceptical about you.
Thank you for sharing the truth with me however. Somehow, it puts things into perspective for me. On a lighter note, it looks like I can check ‘falling in love with a married man’ off my bucket list!
I’m happy to hang out and meet once in a while, but please don’t expect too much.
They had somehow fallen into some sort of unwritten, unspoken routine. Sarah did the day shifts, usually heading home at around 6pm, to return at 6am. Nadia did the evenings and nights. It had been a week, and there was little to no sign of improvement. There was one time when Nadia thought she saw him move. She rushed out to call the nurse in the corridor, only to come back to a completely still Bruma.
“It must have been a figment of your imagination Ma’am. There’s nothing to show any activity. I know you want this badly, and sometimes it can make you see these things.”
Sarah hadn’t said anything about the letter yet. There was no use. First of all, because there was no telling if he would even come back to life, secondly, she didn’t enjoy drama. But mostly because she felt indebted to this woman. All she knew about her was that her name was Nadia, and she was from the United States. Whatever affair she had with Bruma, it was unlikely they were physically intimate, he hadn’t been to the US in so long. And when he did, he was in the company of church people. Unless of course she had been the one to come to Ghana, she didn’t see how an affair was possible.
You’ve pushed a man that cared so much about you to an early grave!
Wendy had discussed Adeola with Yaa after the letter. Somehow it looked as if she was looking for excuses to not be vulnerable – and she’d told her this. Even though she didn’t think she was going to be with any man anytime soon, (or if ever), she knew that Yaa was in love. It was obvious. Yet she didn’t seem to want to be put into that vulnerable situation anymore. “That’s the thing with you ‘boss-chicks’, Yaa! You don’t want to be helpless in any situation.” She laughed.
They were walking the baby around Yaa’s neighbourhood. He was such a bright eyed baby boy, turning his head to look out of his pram at everything they passed.
“Give him a chance! At least now you know he’s gotten that divorce.”
“Madam, I thought you had sworn off men a few months ago, look at you asking me to run after a man!”
This was the friendship they both needed. The kind of friendship every woman needs. No judgement, no fear, just true, profound companionship.
The minute she woke up, everything from the day before started flooding her mind. She could almost see it all again. She felt blank for a short while – almost as if she was watching it play in a movie, something unreal. And when that lifted, that’s when she felt pure heartbreak. For over an hour, she cried hard. For all she’d given, all the sacrifices she’d made, all that she’d almost given up, and most importantly for what she was about to do.
At noon, she knew she had to check out. She also had to eat something. She ordered a sandwich in their restaurant, and picked it up on her way out.
She made straight for her parents’ house, knowing that her dad would be home and would have questions. She didn’t know if she was ready to talk. All she needed was to work. To get her mind off all of this.
“OJ… This is Dr. Akyia.”
“I know I haven’t called you in ages! I’ve been out of town for a while, and I’m only back for a short bit.”
“I can’t say I’m well.”
“I need your help with something. I need an expedited divorce!”
“I caught him in bed with another man.”
She almost broke into tears saying those words. It still felt unreal.
“Yes, Monday morning should be fine. Thank you OJ. I appreciate this.”
Andrea woke up in OJ’s arms a very content woman. He was still fast asleep when she woke up. He didn’t snore much, but he had this heavy breathing that for some funny reason was endearing to her. And she felt his breath tickling her neck.
She didn’t want to move much and wake him.
The music was still playing, but it was more hush now.
They’d spent most of the night drinking and dancing in his living room. He was such a good dancer. And he was goofy. They did rap battles to really old songs from when they were kids, and then they slow danced to Luther Vandross and Backstreet Boys songs. The night ended beautifully – drunk sex!
How had she missed out on these little things in her marriage? Or was it the marriage tag that took them away? She and Gyedu had never had anything remotely close to this – not even when they were dating.
Yet she hoped he had no plans of asking her to marry him anytime soon. She wasn’t ready… and she didn’t want any of this disappearing into thin air. This is the happiest she had been in so long!
It was probably close to noon, but they hadn’t really made any plans. They’d promised to pick the boys from her mother’s place to see an animation at the cinema later in the evening. Speaking of her mother, she knew that she had many questions to answer soon. She had seen that look on her face, and she knew she had to start preparing her answers.
He stirred behind her, and held her closer, nibbling on her ear. “You dance so well even in bed!” He grazed his fingers lightly on her arms, giving her goosebumps.
It felt good. She turned around to kiss him. Morning breath or not, they started making out, and she could already tell what they’d be doing all afternoon.
They were interrupted by a phone call.
He wasn’t going to pick up, but she shoved him towards the phone.
“Oh hi, Dr. Akyiaa,”
“Haha yes, it’s been really long! How are you doing?”
“Wait, what? Why? What happened?”
“Oh wow! I can clear up some things from my Monday morning. Is that fine with you?”
He hung up, with a faraway look on his face.
“You look like you’ve seen a ghost!”
“You can’t tell anyone this! My friend caught her husband in bed with another man! She wants a divorce.”
Andrea was suddenly nauseous.
Nadia was doing some work on her MacBook. There was a lot that needed to be done in person, and they wanted to know if she was coming back anytime soon. Of course she couldn’t be too sure. It had been a month already. He was off the vent and breathing by himself now, so that was definitely some progress. The doctors didn’t seem too enthusiastic though, but she knew he would come to. He had to!
That’s when she heard Bruma sigh.
She thought she’d imagined it. Probably like that first time when she thought she’d seen him move.
But it happened again, and his eyes started to flutter.
Nadia sat still for a minute. Her heart was thumping!
She needed to be sure she wasn’t dreaming. She shut the laptop, and placed it on the floor.
Bruma opened his eyes. He looked into her eyes, and she didn’t know what to do. What if she moved, and all this turned out to be some illusion?
He coughed a bit.
It was real. He wasn’t dead. He was moving. His eyes were open, he was alive!
“Dry.” He whispered, pointing to his neck area.
Nadia was on her feet, but she couldn’t move. She was dumbstruck… totally dumbfounded.
He shut his eyes again for a minute, and she moved closer to his bed. Maybe she really was hallucinating. He opened his eyes and tried to reach out to her with his hands. It was a weak effort. She went straight to him now, in tears.
He noticed the tears and tried to touch her face. She crouched by his bed, her face close to his, grateful, and joyful, with so many emotions bubbling in her heart.
She heard the footsteps, but it was as if she had been glued to his side.
He was alive!
“I don’t know if you understand, Doc. I had a very vivid dream of what his funeral would be like. Maybe it was a sign.”
“It has been a little too long, and chances of full recovery are very slim. But I believe we can give it another week?”
“I think it’s time to end all this. Let’s pull his plugs, Doc.” Sarah said as she walked through the door.
She gasped and dropped her handbag, almost losing her footing…
Bruma smiled at her. Nadia gasped.
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